"We were so utterly, unbearably crushed that we despaired of life itself. We felt we had received the sentence of death; but that was to make us rely not on ourselves but on God" (2Corinthians 1:8-9).
I have come to realize that my fall of a few weeks ago was much more than it appeared on the surface. It is said "there are no accidents" and I have been given the knowing that it is true in this case. As I reviewed my journal the other day, I realized that three days prior to the fall I had a dream about falling. In a way I believe it was a precognition to prepare me for the event or to get my attention. I realize now that the fall was an initiation or test to allow me to put into practice the theories I have about healing and who God really is. I was able to witness and experience without a doubt that all things are possible with God and that miracles are possible.
"Count it all joy, my brethren, when you meet with various trials, for you know that the testing of your faith produces steadfastness. And let steadfastness have its full effect, that you may be perfect and complete, lacking in nothing" (James 1:2-4).
Once you realize you have everything you could ever want or need supplied from God, and the only thing that can keep you from receiving the inheritance is your own mind, you can let go and let God infuse your life with all the abundance, blessings, and gifts that the Beloved is wanting and waiting to give you! FALL in love with God, FALL away from the past, FALL in surrender, FALL to pieces so you may be re-formed and reborn, and FALL so you may be raised with Christ Spirit to new life.
"I have suffered the loss of all things, and count them as refuse, in order that I may gain Christ and be found in him" (Philippians 3:8). It is no longer I (ego) who lives, but Christ (our true self) within me!
"We know that in EVERYTHING God works for good with those who love him